Thursday–November 17, 2005
Training: 90 mins continuous run…Massage in the pm
Where: Thun?Quotes: \"It\'s time for some cooooolllld weather.\" Me (After saying that for some reason when I say it is 0 degrees outside sounds SOOOO much worse than saying hey it is 32!!! Darned Celsius! hahahah
Friday–November 18, 2005-My first official breakdown
Training: 75 mins
Where: Thun with Astrid?Quotes: \"The ocean has never felt so wide, my arms never so empty…\" Me on my AIM away message.
Well…I figured it would happen sometime…and it did! I woke up from a nap today and I got terribly lonely. I was overwhelmed from loneliness! I am not quite sure what brought it on. I think it started by me missing cuddling! Waking up and having nobody to hug. HAHAHA, I know, I am such a kid. But I am such an affectionate person and I need a good hug now and again. I am one of those people who believes that every problem in the world could be solved by hugs and cuddling!!! How could you be mad at someone if they gave you a hug??? HAHAHA In situations where I feel like cuddling and can\'t, I can usually just walk into a roommates room and ask for a hug and then talk to them about it…Anyway, so I couldn\'t cuddle so I got really sad, and I couldn\'t go grab a hug from a roommate real quick, so I just started crying. I was crying for like half an hour and then I was like calm down! So I went to my computer and started chatting with Conrad and some of my friends, telling them I was super lonely. Of course they all showered me with affections and I miss yous and the like and I was okay, but still sad…Luckily, I had scheduled a running date with my friend Astrid. We decide on a time to run from our houses and run toward each other next to the Aare river…We usually meet up after about 15 minutes of running. I was still crying about five minutes before I had to leave and then Conrad made me laugh because he said, \"You better stop crying before you run…You would look pretty silly running by yourself and crying.\" And then I just pictured myself running along the street just blubbering and crying and how silly that would look and it made me giggle. So I left my apartment one minute late to gather myself…. But I swore as soon as I saw Astrid I would probably start crying again…Well \"Asi\" and I met up and I told her all about my crying fit and she said that sometimes you just need a good cry, just to let it out. I started telling her how lonely I felt and almost started crying again, but something about running with Astrid calmed me and it was nice to have that company and friendship and that run! That run really saved me because or else who knows how long I would have been crying all alone! I was only supposed to run 60, but ran 75 instead just because it made me feel better. It\'s amazing how a run can just cleanse your brain of thoughts…it is my therapy sometimes! Just being able to think and leave my problems behind me on the trails I run…never to be picked up again…
Saturday–November 19, 2005
Training: 60mins, 30 mins
Where: Thun and Emdtal?Quotes: \"Yaaaaaay. We have a new doggggiiieee…omg, I sounded so….2 years old!\" Me after seeing my aunt\'s new puppy. That thing is hyper!!!
Sunday–November 20, 2005
Training: Oh Lord. 2k 7:11 pace, 3 times up this long, steep, PAINFUL hill, 2k 7:08
Where: \"A Reutig