Monday – September 17, 2007
Training: 50 minutes
Day Mileage: 7 miles
Week Mileage: 7 miles
Details: Aaaaah, FALL! What WONDERS it does for running!!! Today I ran my run quite fast and I felt gooood! There's something about the perfect temperatures, the crunch of dried leaves under your feet that gives one a LIFT!!!! PLUS, I can actually breathe now (for some reason) so that of course lifts me up as well. I was running today and I realized that I have constantly been justifying about running not being my TOP priority and doing so much thinking and thinking and thinking about why it isn't a top priority at the moment…From school, to school, to reading and writing, to work, to translating, to using my brain tooooo much!!! Then I woke up and thought, I need to shut the brain down…because in this sport, unfortunately, it's not the brain that counts in the end, but it's the heart...I am a big believer in that. I am hoping the brain shuts off for running purpose and that my heart takes over again… And I think my heart is working really hard at the moment!!!!!!!!!!!! So that's a good thing…more on this later.
Tuesday – September 18, 2007
Training: 50 minutes again
Day Mileage: 7 miles
Week Mileage: only 14 miles
Details: feeling okay….besides the fact that I still can't breath….yeah….problemo….
Wednesday – September 19, 2007
Training: 20 minute warm up, 16x1 minute one slow, one fast, 15 min cool down
Day Mileage: 7 miles
Week Mileage: 21 miles
Details: Sooo, more about all of this thinking stuff…Here are the things that run through my mind when my brain is thinking too much…"Maybe I'm not meant to do this. I'm not a typical distance runner, does that mean I have to turn into one if I want to turn into something??? I don't really watch what I eat and could probably or SHOULD probably eat a lot less sweets and more fruits and veggies, do I have to watch what I eat??? I think I am supposed to, but I can't bring myself to do it. I can't do without sugar, sugar sugar…But if I don't give up sugar, does this mean that I'll never actually be fast? I don't look like a typical distance runner, does this mean I'll never turn into a good distance runner? Do I not care enough about it that I don't do my sit-ups all the time? Because I am not obsessed with my abs, does this mean I can't be a good distance runner? Are typical distance runners obsessed with their abs or is that just my perception of them? Did the people I met in college who were obsessed with their abs, obsessed with eating turn me off to all of this eating, nutrition, being healthy thing, which is now biting me in the butt? Isn't their a healthy middle-point? Do I really have to think about food all the time (like most of the fast distance runners I know)? Is it that I just don't care enough that I don't watch what I eat at all? Is it terrible that I eat at least one sweet thing a day??? Or maybe two or three or four?"
This, exactly this, is WHY I think that my brain needs to stop thinking and my heart should take over the steering wheel.
Thursday– September 20, 2007
Training: 49 minutes
Day Mileage: 7 miles
Week Mileage: 28
Details: Ummmm, yeah. Felt okay.
Friday – September 21, 2007
Training: 63 minutes
Day Mileage: 9 miles
Week Mileage: 37 miles
Details: I like Fridays. J
Saturday– September 22, 2007
Training: 22 minute warm up, 10k race, 10 minute cool down
Day Mileage: 10 miles
Week Mileage: 47 miles
Details: CAN NOT BREATHE!
Sunday – September 23, 2007
Training: 49
Day Mileage: 7 miles
Week Mileage:
Details: TOOOO MUCH FREEDOM!
Yes, you heard correctly, I have too much freedom to do what I want. I don't have anyone to set my boundaries. I don't have anyone who is pushing me to do more. I don't have someone telling me what to do. I do what I feel like doing…NOT GOOD!!!! I need structure and I am not afraid to admit it so this not having a coach thing is … well it SUCKS! I have a group and coaches to work out with ever Wednesday and Saturday, but nobody fills me the in-betweens. My problem is, I need someone to hold me accountable. Because if my training plan says "45 minutes core strength," then I would do that because I would be ashamed if I would write back and tell someone coaching me that I didn't do it because of some cop-out reason. Sooo, yeah…. There goes my brain again…"If I wanted it bad enough, wouldn't I not need someone telling me what to do???" Hmmmm, I dunno. BUT, I have not given up…
NEXT: September 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30 – Back on track soon...(in many ways)
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INDEX: Unfinished Business -- Former PA XC state champion Josi Lauber's post-collegiate adventure